The New School

Lara Bozabalian

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Do you remember, Nancy,

when we sat in the Creole restaurant

and glanced up at the television to see students running

with their hands in the air and photographs

of two young men?

Their angular faces. Trench coats.

We didn’t understand what was happening,

our brains felt like mush, it wasn’t the wine,

it was like being in a foreign country,

on the street corner, at a hospital,

struggling to understand or be heard.

 

This morning, on the way to work,

the radio announced another shooting.

The commentator said it was the 8th this year,

and I stretched back to that dinner we shared,

huddled in our booth, mouthing gumbo

and blackened alligator, feeling safely exotic,

friends at the end of a university adventure,

so much left before us,

even the tragedies we didn’t know about

—fractured hearts, burials—

were still adventures to be experienced.

 

But never this,

we never ran from classrooms

with our hands in the air, shoulder to shoulder,

screaming or crying and trying not to slip in the blood.

We never had pop pop pop trigger-stitched into dreams,

saw how buildings could be transformed into cages,

that we then had to walk through for years,

pretend that algebra mattered in,

obey in, eat in, drive by, graduate from.

 

Annamaria didn’t even pause when she heard the news.

I have done that, surely, Nancy, through some of the last 25.

Because the number snuck up on me,

like a birthday you gazed at from the kids table (so many candles),

and couldn’t, even in your wildest dreams,

imagine reaching.


 

 

Lara Bozabalian, "THE NEW SCHOOL". Copyright © 2018 by Lara Bozabalian. Reprinted by permission of the author.

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