The Fatigue

Eli Tareq El Bechelany-Lynch

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The Fatigue is just fatigue. It

sprays my body like

a numbing agent. Say the

way I sleep might not be

working, say the way I eat

might not be working.

Hope to god the meds

start working. The other day

she said you need firmer

boundaries. Sometimes

this looks like an earlier

bedtime. Fuel your body

with hope that something

might change. Like a bowl of rice

steaming, put it in your mouth

and huff, too quick, too impatient

but if nothing changes, keep

moving. A challenge is only a challenge

once you stop trying. No, I mean

a challenge is always a challenge

when your body doesn't work right

what is right? They only say

the right side of history when

a few decades have passed. Someday

we will look back and see

much of the same. Say thank you

for your friends and the family that stay

in touch. Was it challenging? Everything is

changing. The fatigue is just fatigue

until it’s not.

 

Eli Tareq El Bechelany-Lynch "The Fatigue" from knot body. Copyright © 2020 by Eli Tareq El Bechelany-Lynch. Reprinted by permission of the publisher.

Source: knot body (Metatron Press, 2020)